Anime Expo Next Week!

Yes Anime Expo is next week! well this week on the american calender since sunday ia first.  And you wanna know what's awesome? I GOT AN EBT CARD! Its for food for people that can't afford it and I can't. I qualified for Emergency money(get the money faster) and got A LOT  of money. >_> I was expecting like 100 bucks cause i buy my food from dollar stores and rarely from a chain grocery store (ralphs, target, pravilions, ect.) ALSO ALSO I GOT INTO THE CRASH SPACE TOO! WHERE I CAN SLEEP IN A CRAMPED ROOM WITH UP TO 7 OTHER VOLUNTEERS! :D BOYS & GIRLS~! I don't find it a problem since as you know i really don't care xD long as i don't see any of em nude its all good to me! xD I'd take a pillow but forget it i'll use my jacket~ or the floor i like sleeping on the floor~. I just need to be there early and its ALL GOOD! 


I will get the room on the 28th which is day 0 so that's sweet and AX is 4 days long till the 2nd of july so its awesome :D its free....it should be D: (all worried again) Can't wait for it. I don't have many clothes so i dunno. got like 2-3 pairs of pants uuuh yeahhhh haha. I plan to take Clarice(my netbook) with me and this electric flat iron. and my water bottle i need to clean that thing again. And maybe buy some bananas. hehe. :D .....yeah hope i'm not late D: waaaah


Also didn't get that job either. fuckin' basterds


-BK

Job Interview today!

I got a job interview today! :D .....I hope I get it though. I don't have transportation to get there so imma have to walk it'd take an hour and 19mins not bad but i still need to take a shower and wash my hair and press it which would take like 3 damn hours or so. and I also need to get the last 2 dollars i have in change into dollars so i can put 10 bucks on my phone so i'll have 30 and buy my minutes then i guess WALK over to the interview. the interview is at 10:30AM means i have  to get up at 7am go to ralphs walk to 7/11 put 10 dollars on the card add minutes rest for maybe 10mins or NOT and walk to the place for interview and how to hell i'm not lost. hopefully be there by 10am because well good doesn't have a 1030am option. i have no food so maybe one of those chicken patty things my bro brought to the house yesterday. I don't have a dress shirt either. well i USED TO but those were from Elementary and those have long been turned in for cash and i don't think i could wear them anyway D: wah would make shopping so much easier.
i'm so hungry and tired but i still got stuff to do. i should eat though before continuing combing my hair out otherwise i'll just get more tired and hungry.


-BK

How ANNOYING

I ACCIDENTALLY pressed the channel button on the tvi n my mom's room and lost the cable. i contacted time warner via live chat since i can't call em. and they didn't even fucking tell me how to fix it. ITS FUCKING SIMPLE SERIOUSLY! and i had to make an appointment t get it fixed. But that pisses me off since i screwed up my mom's cable for her room and i wanted to get it done BEFORE she got home or well LEAST NOT HAVING TO WAIT 3 FUCKING DAYS! The internet....FUCKING USELESS! IT JUST GAVE ME MORE HEADACHES AND FRUSTRATIONS! LIKE I HAVEN'T HAD THAT ENOUGH THE LAST 3-4 FUCKING DAYS! After i stopped that shit i thought ok imma just press these buttons and HOPE i can do this right and well I DID! THANK FUCK! what i did(this is a reference for myself so that's why i'm putting instructions)

• Pressed the TV button(pointing at the tv!) 
• Press "Input" button (under the "7" button)
• HURRAAAAAY CABLE IS BACK!

Man that was a WASTE OF MY FUCKING TIME. I SWEAR. WHAT DID I WANT TO DO TODAY? 

• work out(run in place on the patio)
• eat (again)
• brush my teeth (i keep getting hungry so i didn't get to do this AT ALL! MY TEETH HURT!)
• clean from under toilet
• seal bottom of toilet with silicone & do the same in mom's bathroom
• get cardboard boxes from recycling bin outside(hopefully, now i have no idea if they are still there)
• take apart table in the back
• use cardbard to get ride of table from the back
• i dunno more running in place

man i'm so pissed i need to eat something fuck today which is what i think EVERYDAY usually


-BK

Marrying cousins/Inbreeding

Ok i dunno WHY but i hate that people say its OKAY to marry your 2nd cousin and looked it up a bit and its pretty much marrying your mom's brother's kids' kids i dunno about you but that's  TO FUCKING CLOSE! NO MATTER HOW YOU PUT IT EW! my diagram

Grandmother + grandfather
                    =
your mom + your dad   &  her brother + your aunt
                 =                                       =
               YOU                 1ST COUSIN + their spouse 
                                                           =
                                           2nd Counsin = OK TO MARRY! YEAH! (FUCK NO! SCREW THAT)!


It's a guess but I think that's how it is I'm sorry but  I'm NOT marrying ANYONE I'M RELATED TO NO MATTER HOW FUCKING SMALL THE PERCENTAGE IS. FUCK. THAT. Everyone else can enjoy that nasty shit not me screw that. My mom told me once that that kinda marriage happened in our famly too i dunno which kinda cousin but ugh ew and what was with the kids? Well THEY GOT PROBLEMS or  something genetically i dunno i have a cousin that's cross-eyed he's probably one of their kids. That's what happens when you marry to closely related THE KIDS BECOME FUCKED UP. WHO THE FUCK IS OKAY WITH THAT?! YOUR RISKING MESSING WITH THIS KIDS LIFE FOR THIS BS EW. Any of a number of things could go wrong the chances of you having a kid with a close relative I DON'T KNOW THE MATH but the normal risk of like a miscarrge i guess is higher with a relative or well NO KID AT ALL. I dunno i don't wanna look it up to gross. ew man found this on wikipedia. 


"You can't help who you fall in love with, it just happens. I fell in love with my sister and I'm not ashamed ... I only feel sorry for my mom and dad, I wish they could be happy for us. We love each other. It's nothing like some old man who tries to fuck his three-year-old, that's evil and disgusting ... Of course we're consenting, that's the most important thing. We're not fucking perverts. What we have is the most beautiful thing in the world."


inbreeding from wiki:
ncest that results in offspring is a form of close inbreeding (reproduction between two individuals with a common ancestor). Inbreeding leads to a higher probability of congenital birth defects because it increases that proportion of zygotes that are homozygous, in particular for deleterious recessive alleles that produce such disorders.^[76] Because most such alleles are rare in populations, it is unlikely that two unrelated marriage partners will both be heterozygous carriers. However, because close relatives share a large fraction of their alleles, the probability that any such rare deleterious allele present in the common ancestor will be inherited from both related parents is increased dramatically with respect to non-inbred couples.


Imma read more but that's what it is and i dunno how you'd have a kid and make em go through that and they could of been born normal, that just seems real fucked up to me.


- BK

Ugh

I thought i was molested when i was a kid and i was WRONG ugh. its annoying. i dunno how many fake memories i have and my mind keeps going to them and its giving me migraines how i want them to stop and i just can't stop thinking bout my past lives either because i feel so lonely >_< i know i should stop but I can't help it. uuuuugh. damn it all. There's also people i want to talk to but i just can't keep up with them. I feel like a 3rd wheel and just can't handle it since i dunno i'll feel like an annoying squeaky toy or something. Also at the time i started feeling this way i'd probably act i dunno pissed off so i avoided them. Either way i just don't feel good enough butting into other people's conversations real life, on the phone and ect. Since one way or another i'll get annoyed and i dunno what i'd do so it's best to not talk. i want to but i dunno, i just don't know what to talk about anyway since they are usually busy and i don't know i really don't know ugggggh. hopefully i can do some kinda running tomorrow.


-BK

Jet Pen Sharpie Review

Last week i got myself a free Jet Pen from www.JetPens.com and the one they gave me a Sharpie Ultra Fine Point  red permanent marker. i drew some random sketches on the white part of some cardboard you get when you use that vending machine for stickers and whatnot.

my sketches:


took a picture with my camera. As always Sharpie is a fine marker. smooth and vibrant and easy to write and draw with. Though drawing with a marker is hard for me since i always make mistakes. It'd be pretty cool if one day they make a erasable marker pens. Like the erasable ink pens. That'd be pretty cool. One day. one day. Anyway the sharpie marker is great sharpie is a good company there markers are amazing. I often make mistakes with markers since i can't fix it but with a Sharpie Ultra Fine Point anyone can become better drawing and or writing with them and work your way up to the normal point type markers.


A great pen! A great Buy and they do last a while! If you leave the cap on, i made that mistake a few times. 5/5!


www.jetpens.com is also a great place to find japanese pens and stationery products. GO GIVE IT A LOOK! 


- BK

True Story of the Rugrats - No its not

i looked on youtube and saw this and thought "holy shit!" but then i remembered hearing a news story or something about the girl that died and her story being the same as the shows was a pure accident. Even though her name was the same and everything else it wasn't done that way on purpose. Even in movies & tv and cartoons (even doug & the angry beavers) that everything that happens isn't real and whatever is based on real life facts was PURE COINCIDENCE. It happened with this girl and i remember they wanted to have rugrats cancelled because of how Angelica in the show acted just like the girl that died and they didn't like that. >_> it eventually got settled i think and the girl's real name and identity was never revealed. Though her name WAS ANGELICA her last name wasn't reveal or it was but I don't remember it. i was 3 when she died like i'd know that. On the net it does talk about her friend the going to help Nickelodeon with the show i remember it saying that. Also think there was a episode of how she died or i had a dream about that and it never really happened O_O i don't know EITHER WAY IT WAS PURE COINCIDENCE >_< I KNOW THAT FOR SURE :D D: still a bit f a sad story though.


I kept feeling real excited or scared or maybe i dunno about it >_< feeling i dunno horrible? that i never noticed it before and how horrible that is but remembering it was by pure accident it was based on some girl's life made me feel better D: i dunno i barely get it myself. or maybe its cause in the end she had a happy life even thought it was mostly fantasy. I guess. anyway yeah that's it :D


-BK